"Ābolu sviests"

vēstule svešiniekam

2012-01-25T00:58:00.001+02:00

Ik katru dienu mēs kļūstam tuvāki un tuvāki, tomēr tajā pašā laikā mēs neesam viens otram nekas. Tas ir kā skatīties uz lāsteku, kas katru ziemu izaug no jauna. Katru dienu tā kļūst garāka un garāka. Tā taču veidojas pati no sevis, pa mazam ūdens pilieniņam. Tā stiepjas un stiepjas, iespējams tā cer sasniegt zemi, bet tad, bums. Pirmais saules stars, tas izkausē lāstekas mazo ledus sirsniņu. Tā izkausē visu ieguldīto darbu, ko mazā lāsteka veikusi, lai kļūtu liela un spēcīga. Pats ļaunākais jau nav tas, ka viņa izkūst, bet tas, ka viņa tā arī nekad nesasniegs zemi. Redzi starp mums ir tieši tāpat. Lai cik ilgs laiks paies, lai cik daudz darba būtu ieguldīts, vienu dienu, bums. Izkusīs viss, kas starp mums ir bijis, bet tas ir bijis nekas.

Es rakstu tev šīs mazās zīmītes, kuras tu iespējams pat vairs nelasi. Es ceru, ka tu pamanīsi to, ko es cenšos tev parādīt. Ik gadu zīmīšu paliek aizvien vairāk un vairāk. Man nav vairs kur tās likt, arī kurpju kastes jau sen ar tām pilnas. No pirmajām manis rakstītajām zīmītēm, sāk pazust manis rakstītie vārdi, tās ir pēdējās atmiņas, kas pazūd no mums.

Pēc kāda laika paliek pāri tikai muļķīgs sapnis, kuru agri no rīta es aizmiršīšu. Vārdi, kurus man nebūs laika uzrakstīt. Un šī mazā vēstule, kurai pazudis ir adresāts.

Ah, when I get my hands on you

2012-01-19T00:13:00.000+02:00

Try to guess how old he is :)

Will you dance with me tonight?

2012-01-03T00:19:00.000+02:00

Mūsu skatuve būs naksnīgās ielas. Ielas malā esošās laternas būs mūsu skatuves gaismas. Mēs dejosim zvaigznēm krītošajām un mēness vēsajam skatienam. Sniegsimies viens pēc otra, dejosim līdz rītausmai. Aizmirsīsim laiku kas dots, pazaudēsim pasauli savu. Mums būs sava mūzika no sirds, sava neredzamā skatuve un sniegpārslas dejos ar mums. Mēs būsim viens otram šajā klusajā, piesnigušajā ieliņā. Aizverot acis mēs smaidīsim, jo tuvāk par šo mirkli nekad vairs nebūsim.

Pasniedz man roku savu. Dejosim šonakt, dejosim mūsu sapņos.

Speaking eyes

2012-01-02T05:59:00.001+02:00

Spoguļa atspulgs. Manī vērojas acis. Dziļas, tumšas un vienlaikus uzmundrinoši gaišas. Tajās ir aizgājušais laiks, nākotnes cerības un tikai viens mirklis. Kā zirneķļa tīkls tās auž sevī iekšā katru redzēto dienu.

Ja tās spētu runāt, tās stāstītu visu par mani. Tās stāstītu par reizēm, kad tās iemirdzas priekā, liekot iemirdzēt arī manai dvēselei. Tās stāstītu par noslēpumiem, kurus es glabāju dziļākajos prāta nostūros. Tās stāstītu par sāpēm, kuras kāds manī audzējis no nekā. Tās stāstītu par sapņiem - piepildītiem, izsapņotiem un salauztiem. Tās stāstītu par mani stundām ilgi, ja vien atrastos kāds, kas klusītēm raudzītos tajās un klausītos stāstos par mani.

wish I could dance semba now

2012-01-01T23:24:00.001+02:00

Happy new year!

2011-12-31T11:56:00.000+02:00

Pulkstenis skaita pēdējās minūtes šogad. Ar cerībām raugos nākamajā gadā, bet vēl nezinu ko pusnaktī ievēlēties.

Pagājušais gads ar sevi nesa apjukumu un haosu. Negaidīti dzīves pavērsieni, smiekli un vienlaikus asaras.

Es satiku cilvēkus, kuri vienmēr paliks man atmiņā, un satiku tādus, kurus es aizmirsīšu pavisam drīz.

Esmu bijusi tur, kur es vēlos atgriezties, un vienlaikus arī nekad tur vairs neatgriezties.

Esmu pazaudējusi un atradusi, salauzusi un salabojusi.

Neskatoties uz kļūdām un vājības mirkļiem, iepriekšējā gada vēlmju saraksts šogad izpildīts.

Nākamajam gadam novēlu daudzus prieka mirkļus un lai piepildās pašas slēptākās vēlmes!

today is special

2011-11-25T17:14:00.002+02:00

Today you're the oldest you've ever been and the youngest you'll ever be again.

take more time

2011-11-25T13:56:00.000+02:00

Please whisper to me

What I need to say

Please whisper to me

What I need to do

This silence between us

Is too silent for us

I'm sorry for things I did in the past

When thinking of you

I regret it so much

If you don't wish to speak

Then kiss me so sweet

Just stop this nothing between us

just one day

2011-11-23T10:20:00.000+02:00

Vai atceries smieklus, kas mūs vienoja? Vai atceries mūsu kaislīgos skatienus?

Kādas spēles gan dzīve ar mums spēlē? Vai asaras un skumjas tā vien redzēt vēlas?

Tu ienesi manī nelielu dzīvesprieka devu, tu parādīji man brīnumus no nekā. Tavā klātbūtnē nogurums nebija nekas, un smiekli bija skaļāki par visu. Tas bija tikai viens neliels mirklis, mirklis kurā likās, ka esam filmu varoņi un visa pasaule mūs vēro.

Vai atceries kā mēs bēgām no lietus? Vai atceries kā ik mirkli kad tikāmies laiks paskrēja pārāk ātri?

Kāpēc gan laiks bija tik ātrs un tagad tas ir apstājies? Vai sāpēm vairāk pienākas kā priekam?

Klusumā vienīgā skaņa bija mūsu sirdspuksti - tie stāstīja neticamus stāstus par to, kas nekad nebūs. Es meklēju kādu skaidrojumu, kādu kārtību. Meklēju ceļu atpakaļ, cerību, ka šis ir tikai sapnis pirms rītdienas. Tomēr, jo ilgāks laiks paiet, es saprotu, ka tu biji dārgākais brīnums, kuru es nekad nespēšu atgūt.

make me feel good

2011-11-19T21:05:00.002+02:00

Mirror, mirror on the wall

I never thought I would live this far

I made some simple things

But every early spring

You did cut my wings

Mirror, mirror on the wall

You tried to take me all

I made some simple dreams

But every early spring

You made my mind empty as TV screen

Mirror, mirror on the wall

This is your last call

I ask for some simple healing

I will find you next spring

Till then I'll be waiting

I hate to admit this but I need someone

2011-11-10T21:59:00.000+02:00

There are things I wish I could say out loud, but there's not a person in this world I could trust to.

There are tears that I wish to cry out, but there's not a shoulder in this world I could lean on.

There's just one hug I need, but there are no arms who would rush to hug me.

it reminds me of something I forgot

2011-11-04T09:59:00.001+02:00

Somebody supposed a thing

That none of us would think

The hopes we denied

Desires we hid

We have to say we are fine

We're not ready to cross the line

Awkward smile and look your way

I try to change it every day

Somebody asks why not?

I reply - It's too late

This choice none of us could make

magico

2011-11-01T19:39:00.003+02:00

Kizomba - a music that catches your ear and a dance that catches your soul.

Kizomba is all about “connecting people”.

Being born in a continent with a effervescent musical history, kizomba is a result of an evolution: young generations, listening to traditional music like semba, felt something was missing - a modern and sensual touch. Adding an electronic percussion with a slow and extremely sensual rhythm… kizomba was born.

running away in dreams

2011-11-01T00:00:00.000+02:00

Empty days

In an empty house

The dreams are lost

And the good days gone

Memories are here

But they can't make it real

Nightmares are my future ghosts

No matter how I beg to stop

They take from me the most

Only thing they leave for me

Is this empty house

Paradise

2011-10-31T18:43:00.002+02:00

going back to who I used to be

2011-10-23T21:53:00.000+03:00

Laiks ies. Daži aizmirsīs, bet citi pat neuzzinās. Es atcerēšos, es zināšu.

Laiks ies. Daži cerēs, bet daži nekad vairs neticēs. Es tev vienmēr noticēšu, es vienmēr cerēšu.

Laiks ies. Daži dzīvos, bet daži nekad nemēģinās. Es tev parādīšu kā izdzīvot, tik atļaujies pamēģināt..

Laiks ies. Daži cīnīsies, bet daži vienmēr izvairīsies. Es turpināšu cīnīties, pat ja tu no manis vairīsies.

Laiks ies. Daži sapratīs, ka laiks nav notverams, bet būs daži, kas to vēl turpinās ķert. Es slēpšu laiku no tevis, tad tas tev būs bezgalīgs.

Laiks ies. Es pazudīšu laikā, bet es vienmēr galu galā atradīšos. Es meklēšu arī tevi, kaut arī tu savā bezgalīgajā laikā būsi mani piemirsis.

Laiks ies. Tu aizmirsīsi, tu neuzzināsi. Es zināšu, es atcerēšos - tad kad tev vajadzēs es arī noticēšu.

empty

2011-10-22T15:18:00.000+03:00

Paņemiet mani, es lūdzu

Tik dariet to klusu, bez sāpem.

Paņemiet salauzto sirdi

Tik dariet to klusu, bez sāpēm.

Paņemiet dvēseli manu

Tik dariet to klusu, bez sāpēm.

Paņemiet sagruvušos sapņus

Tik paņemiet klusu.

Un neatgādiniet.

Paņemiet pēdējo cerību

Tik paņemiet klusu.

Un neatgādiniet.

Paņemiet visu.

Visu, kas vēl palicis pāri.

Atstājiet mani klusu, bez sāpēm.

Un neatgādiniet.

world never stops

2011-10-01T20:40:00.000+03:00

it makes me free

2011-10-01T17:35:00.000+03:00

Its too dark for your eyes

So I choose to make a surprise

This time no waiting

It would only lead us to hating

So I hush you

You know exactly what I want to do

But before I ask if you’re ready

I slowly, slowly

I silently, tell some lost words

You know these are my last words

And before I leave with tears in my eyes

I reveal my lies

When you are gone

My heart becomes cold as stone

Only thing then missing here

Are your lips colliding with mine

I try to hide,but you always find me

2011-10-01T16:43:00.000+03:00

What makes you see what you see?

Can I change it when you are free?

What makes you look my way?

Would you look to another if I could not stay?

Tell me sweet lies

After some time it will make me wise

Today or maybe tomorrow

The time flies by I know

I wait for more and more

Like starting a new war

After all the screams

We divide in two different teams

We fight till late morn

After that we calm down

Eat again some candy corn

But cracks between us

Destroy us with success

What makes you see what you see?

You know it’s not a chocolate tree

What makes you look my way?

Even when I leave you alone halfway

sometimes it hurts instead

2011-10-01T00:01:00.000+03:00

Sometimes we have to make hard choices. But mainly we need to make them because of someone. Usually it is because we love someone so much that we would do everything to make them happy. I came back cause I tried to save myself. Only now I realize that with saving myself, I turned some other lifes around. I’m the mistake in their lifes, now I know I have to leave. I have nowhere to go, no idea of how to get away. I’m doing that so they wouldn’t have to fight and cry, I’m the one who brings these things. I can choose to break my heart, but mostly my heart is breaking when I see their tears. I never lived for myself, but they don’t know that. Their lifes and smiles are more important than I am. I will leave, thats the only way to save them from misery.

Even smile hurts today, My eyes are open. Finally I can see my place in this world. I have no place called home, and the closest place to home is the one I have to leave. I can’t stay here. Cause it hurts too much.

it's just a sound, but it's aloud

2011-09-11T14:54:00.000+03:00

The angels cry

Cause they cannot die

The angels cry

Cause they cannot lie

I can hear them cry

I know they struggle to survive

The angels cry

Cause they are shy

The angels cry

Cause they cannot fly

But I know they try

To keep me alive

The angels cry

Cause life is passing by

The angels cry

Cause they didn't say goodbye

I cannot give them a retry

So I sing them a lullaby

should I leave it or should I struggle

2011-09-02T00:56:00.001+03:00

I wrap my arms around you

But only in my dream

It hasn't been a day or two

Your hold is what I feel

There are no deadlines

If music could get into my bones

I would dance with you

Till I loose the ground under my feet

Or till the lights are off

Don't tell me I'm too sweet

Just don't want to miss out on you

I wake up from a knock on my door

It's a hard struggle

C'mon I can't wait for a day

When not only in my dreams

I can wrap my arms around you

If that's ok, I don't mind

2011-08-29T01:08:00.000+03:00

Sometimes I think I don't think at all.

How come I have made so many mistakes, still I haven't learnt anything from them. How come I don't even know myself, how come I can change my mind million times a day. How come I can make up a thousand lies about me, but I don't know even a single truth about me. Everyone who tried to understand me but failed - they said that I'm going nowhere. So these pointless words repeat themselves in my head over and over again like some broken record. I turn music louder and louder to cover the truth. But if I close my eyes I still can see their faces full of disappointment. Then I go out and run, still I know I can't run away. I'm spining till I'm getting dizzy. How can I find the right answers, how come I don't even have right questions. But now it doesn't matter - cause I know sooner or later my time will come.

How come I am who I am?

silent dreams

2011-08-21T16:29:00.000+03:00

Un es zinu, ka mēs atkal klusējam
Patiesību vairs neatklājam

Pagājušajā pilnmēness naktī

Mēs nokritušās zvaigznes meklējām

Šoreiz mēs skatīsimies kā ievas zied

Pat, ja ziemeļu vēji mūs projām dzīs

Gaisā vēl jūtams saspringums

Ko mēs vēl gaidām?

Vārdus, kas mums pastāstīs?

Vai kādu, kas pasakā mūs ievīs?

Mēs gaidām vēlos sapņus

Un klusi ceram kaut tie piepildās

it just wouldn't be me anymore

2011-08-21T16:13:00.001+03:00

The devil tears

They burned my eyes

I put on another patch

Feel there's something I neeed to catch

The truth that lies behind

Is nowhere to be found

Year after year

On a new years eve

At midnight I burn my idol

While lights of burning soul

With old silly fool

Take my old violin

With tender sound they sing

It's time to join in

way too far to go

2011-08-08T15:17:00.000+03:00

If your head stucks in a cloud

Don't shout all around

If you come here and there

Don't tell you don't care

When you're left all alone

Then pick up your phone

You can swallow your pride

And find that your kind

You're not on your own

Don't you dare let me down

Can you tell when it's wrong?

Can you keep it strong?

If only for one more day

You keep it yourself

no use of fighting anymore

2011-08-07T15:25:00.000+03:00

waiting seems too long

2011-07-17T15:00:00.000+03:00

Someone like you

I shouldn't miss so much

But I do

It doesn't make no sence as such

Once or twice is not enough

It's early in the morning

Every step is too rough

I'm the one who's leaving

Someone like me

You cannot forget

You want me to see

In another set

We cannot play one more game

That's such a shame

:)

2011-06-20T16:38:00.002+03:00

I reach and touch the sky

2011-06-16T11:52:00.000+03:00

As you took me up in the sky

I know I never felt so alive

You took me of the ground

Without any sound

They said my dreams were wrong

But I always kept strong

Now look who's in the sky

Who has learnt how to fly

Soon I'll be back on the ground

But I'm not willing to turn around

You told me not to be scared

Thank you that you dared

To me take there

Where I've never been before

Happy Bday!!!

2011-05-28T11:06:00.000+03:00

Es atkal kļūstu par gadu vecāka. Iesākums dienai bija lielisks - pēc pusnakts es dabūju savu dzimšanas dienas deju, kuru man kā par pārsteigumu sagādāja māsa. Pagājušo gadu ar mani to deju nodejoja pieci puiši, bet šogad bija tik daudz, ka es pat nepaspēju saskaitīt. Tāds neliels prieciņš, un man tādas aizdomas, ka šī ir viena no manām foršākajām dzimšanas dienām.

Vēl vēlējos atklāt nelielu jaunumu - šovasar braukšu kā aupair uz UK. Tāpēc liela iespējamība, ka šeit rakstīšu vēl retāk nekā pašlaik.

Un tagad man vēl jāatmet viens no saviem sliktajiem paradumiem, jo izrādās ka visiem nav vienalga.

bound,bound and rebound

2011-05-27T13:12:00.003+03:00

Even the best fall down sometimes

2011-05-25T14:38:00.003+03:00

First impression comes only once, but it doesn't mean that it will stay the same. It can be changed.

It seemed so simple, and suddenly it became so hard. Your perfect smile came out of nowhere, it completely took my mind. But I feel that it is a little too late.

simple not always mean simple

2011-05-21T23:22:00.001+03:00

"Spogulīt, spogulīt, saki man tā, kapēc šovakar klusē tu?"

Ir nedaudz par vēlu, lai jautātu, par vēlu, lai atbildētu.

Varbūt vēl nav par vēlu, salasīt spoguļa lauskas. Pirmām kārtām man nemaz nevajadzēja saplēst to. Tas tikai rādīja patiesību, to kuru pašlaik es cenšos atrast. Tas rādīja patiesību, kurai es nevēlējos ticēt, bet es noticētu tagad. Skaidri zinu, ka nespēšu to salikt kopā tādu kā tas bija, bet es varu censties. Ceru, ka tad tas atkal man stāstīs patiesus stāstus par mani. Es zinu, ka salīmēšu spoguļa lauskas, varbūt ne šodien, varbūt ne rīt, bet kādu dienu, kad man to visvairāk vajadzēs.

"Spogulīt, spogulīt, saki man tā, kad būs tā īstā diena?"

I hope you don't mind

2011-05-18T17:20:00.000+03:00

Our questions seem so wrong

I don't want us to fall apart

We had our crushed dreams

But together we made them real

Simple happiness were brought into our lifes

Suddenly it all became lies

This city have no place for us

You tried to remove this fuss

I know it won't help

All we can hope for is to be held

Until we build our own shield

Then in the morning we let go

Say a simple goodbye

Viss ko es stāstu...

2011-04-09T03:31:00.003+03:00

Klusumam vairs nav nozīmes, to ir aizstājusi mūzika. Dienasgaisma iespīd pa nelielo vēdlodziņu. Tumsai vairs nav nozīmes to ir aizstājusi saule. Vēl ir šie bezjēdzīgi, murgainie sapņi. Es varētu jums bezmaksas tos atdot, lai tikai man būtu naktsmiers. Un vecais dzegužpulkstenis, kuru jau sen vajadzēja izmest vai pat sadauzīt. Rotaļu lācis, kas gaida, kad atkal paņemšu to rokās, bet es vairs neesmu mazs bērns, šoreiz neesmu. Svešas smaržas manā mīļākajā kleitā, vairs nešķiet, ka tā ir mana, tomēr tā glabā sevī to vienu vakaru. Pazudusī čība jau nedēļu zem gultas snauduļo. Pustukša vai puspilna medus burka uz galda, tikai nesakiet to Pūkam. Tējas krūze ar atdzisušu tēju bez cukura man acu priekšā uz nekārtīgā galda stāv. Atvērtais skapis un vientuļā kurpe pie tā. Vārdi, kuros nekad nav patiesības, tikai balti meli.

Ja to visu pazaudētu , nekā vairs nebūtu. Nebūtu nekā, kas pateiktu, ka es šeit biju. Nebūtu nekā, kas pateiktu, kas es esmu.

something is wrong or everything is right

2011-04-09T02:47:00.000+03:00

I close my eyes now and then

I wear some fashioned heels

Want to know how it feels

I made a wish like that

But this time I can't

You make me move my feet

I have to say yes

As you walk in my dreams

So proudly like you own them

I'm not sure I want to go that far

Don't want to shut down another star

My brain is playing games with me

I don't even want to know how

Want to open my eyes as a cure

Loose the picture of you

try to fix me

2011-04-08T00:25:00.002+03:00

Vēl tikai mazliet

2011-04-03T23:16:00.006+03:00

Ļaujiet man paspēlēties ar savu dzīvi. Es nedomāju ar to riskēt, spēlētoties ar nāvi. Es vēlos izvēlēties pa kuru ceļu iet. Pat ja man dzīve piedāvā šo jauko lielceļu, līdzeno, viegli pārvaramo, es iešu pa mazo taciņu, ar bedrēm, nezālēm un neskaitāmiem līkumiem. Es tikai nedaudz vēlos visu sarežģīt. Vēlos noiet to ceļu, kuram visapkārt skaistāki skati, kaut arī pats gājiens būs smags, pat ja savas kājas savainošu. Lielceļš - tas ir akmens, baltas līnijas, mājas ceļa malā - tā nav pasaule, ko vēlos redzēt, manās acīs tam nozīmes nav. Ļaujiet man iet pa taciņu - pa ceļam baltus ziedus saplūkt, redzēt taureņus dejojot, nogaršot kādu ābolu no vientuļās ābeles. Man nevajag to vienkāršāko, nevajag to ko citi jau izmēģinājuši. Man vajag to interesantāko, to kas man ko jaunu iemācīs, pat ja šis ceļš nav tas ko citi ietu, pat ja tas ir pārāk bīstams. Pat ja es apmaldīšos, ļaujiet - mums visiem jāatrod savs īpašais ceļš mājup. Es nebaidos ne no vilkiem, kas mani klusi vēros, ne no pērkona negaisa, kas pār mani krusu gāzīs. Neieslodziet mani šajā ziepju burbulī. Atstājiet manī vēl nedaudz šī prieka, šo skaisto un vienlaikus bīstamo, jo manās acīs tas ir visdārgākais.

book

2011-04-01T23:41:00.002+03:00

Tikai grāmata ir delikāta. Izņēmi no plaukta. Pašķirstīji. Noliki. Tajā nav bezkaunības. Tā neiebrāžas tevī iekšā... Stāv uz plauktiņa, klusē, gaida, kad to paņems siltajās rokās. Tad tā atklāsies. Ja vien ar cilvēkiem tā būtu. Daudz mēs esam. Visus nepašķirstīsi. Pat vienu ne. Pat savējo. Pat sevi.

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strange thing happened

2011-03-27T20:54:00.001+03:00

I'm staring into nowhere

Hoping to see you somewhere

One day hopefully

But till then I'm waiting peacefully

If I will meet someone

I will count him as noone

Tell me why

You are so shy

The time is passing by

I can't even get a simple goodbye

Don't know if you're sorry

But I don't want to write another story

I'm a dreamer but I'm not the only one

2011-03-20T21:57:00.000+02:00

Roll the dice

I won't tag any price

It's your time to go

Your move to show

End of this game is not coming

All night long we'll be playing

I want to share my dreams with you

Don't know what else to do

I've seen a thousand smiles

I don't mind walking a million miles

I've cried a thousand tears

But I'm not afraid to face my fears

So would you dare to share

This walk with me

I can play until you loose

2011-03-14T00:53:00.000+02:00

You stole everything I had

You took my good dreams

Do you know what it leaves?

You took away my inspirations

Left me full with passions

I had crazy nightmares

But you just stood and stared

My laughter got louder

Still I couldn't get closer

I had to share a part

So things that I gave

Don't leave no shock wave

You don't worry at all

I'm not broken, not building another wall

Cause you helped me to find my own way

What is your hardest task?

2011-03-13T23:49:00.000+02:00

When you look into my face

Do you imagine some other place?

What would you like to see?

Feel like frenzy-free?

I don't know what have changed

Was this meeting arranged?

What if I never had met you?

So many questions

Too many frustrations

How about our first touch?

Did it have some sense?

Some things we shouldn't ask

For me it's the hardest task

Why can't I?

2011-03-13T23:30:00.000+02:00

I held a water

But it slipped away

No matter what I drew

It couldn't stay

If every moment from now

I can make a perfect show

Could you believe?

That I have a little relieve

If I can't forget

How I lost my target

How it all just slipped through my fingers

Why did we played silly buggers?

Waiting till dark

Will water take away this mark?

I'ts only a part of way

2011-03-11T11:14:00.000+02:00

I started a new song

But only now I have the melody

The passion is gone

Glassy eyes

Wearing black gloves

This time I have no way back

No other STOP signs

I'm not a queen

So you can laugh as much as you want

As much as you need

But deep inside you know

I have chosen the right way

I have started right song

I have a real melody

fireflies are our only life

2011-03-11T11:04:00.000+02:00

We all have fences

Don't deny that

Once in a while we need to climb over

Don't forget that

Must see the other places

Green grass on the other side

Don't waste that

Need to let it slide

Don't feel like traped fish in a pond

Don't hate that

Even if the distance is long

Let the river flow

Don't change that

Open doors to the house you live in

Don't close that

You need to start a feeling

Crash those fences

Don't hide that

Stay with no defences

Take a chance and hope for the best

2011-02-27T21:11:00.002+02:00

Don't you give up on me

Flowers bloom once a year

And we know they'll bloom next year

Maybe I'm lost now

But if you count till three

I'll be there even if you close your eyes

One

I hear the way you call me

Two

I'm on my way back to you

Three

I'm right here and you can count on me

feel good when:

2011-02-14T09:14:00.001+02:00

Laughing so hard you don’t even make any noise.
Hear songs that bring you back to great moments in your life.
Have those random good-hair days when you just feel beautiful or handsome
Correctly guessing an old password on a website you haven’t visited in awhile.
That instant when the thing you didn’t understand suddenly makes complete sense.
Waking up, realizing it’s the weekend, and curling up for another thirty minutes of sleep.
Sitting outside during a thunderstorm. The sound of the thunder, the flash of lightning and the smell of rain to remind you of the beauty of nature.
When you’re hot under your bed covers and you stick one leg out from under the covers to cool off.
Popping bubble wrap.
Wind blowing through your hair.
Randomly catching a glimpse of your reflection in a window or mirror and liking what you see.
Seeing the person who makes your heart race, even if it’s just for a few seconds in the hallway.
Hearing a new song you really like and then downloading it and listening to it over and over and over.
A certain smell that instantly takes you back to another place or time in your life.
Being able to tell someone some genuine good news.
The good pain of stretching your legs after sitting down for a long time.
When someone scratches an itch on your back for you.
When your dog or cat follows you all over the house.
When you accidentally say something that rhymes.
People who make you smile just by thinking of them.
The exciting feeling you get when you’re getting off the plane in a city you’ve never been to before.
Receiving a surprise hug from behind by someone you were looking forward to seeing.
The feeling of a fresh mouth after you brush your teeth.
Being on the beach at night.
Waking up early and going someplace, like the beach or a park, and being the only one there.
Hearing a song that seems to be written about exactly what’s going on in your life right now.
When you make eye contact with a friend from across the room and you both automatically smile.
The “butterflies in your stomach” feeling of a new romantic relationship.
Waking up from a weird dream and remembering every last detail.
When your jaws and cheeks ache from too much laughing.
Singing and dancing around the house with music blaring when no one is home.
The cold side of the pillow on a warm summer night.
Singing every word to your favorite song at the top of your lungs.
Finally being able to pee after you were forced to hold it for a while.
Those days where you’re completely free to do whatever you want without worrying about school or work.
The hilarity of an inside joke. You’ll never get it unless you were there at its inception.
Seeing a shooting star.
When you’ve found or made the perfect gift for someone and you just can’t wait to give it to them.
When you’re really upset and someone makes you smile.
A first kiss. The sweet rush of butterflies in your tummy when you kiss someone special for the very first time.
Returning to the exact same warm spot in your bed after you get up to pee in the middle of the night.
Walking barefoot through soft grass.
When you find out the name of a song you’ve been wanting to know forever.
Glancing at the person you really like only to catch them looking at you too.
Getting something cool (and unexpected) for free.
The moment when you crawl into bed after a long, tiring day.
Finding money in a pair of jeans you haven’t worn in a while.
Grabbing your phone to text someone and seeing that they have already texted you.
Jumping from the jacuzzi to the pool and back to the jacuzzi again.
Listening to the birds chirp outside as the sun rises into the sky on a sunny Sunday morning.
Waiting until nobody is home and then blaring your favorite tunes and dancing all over the place.
This scenario: “Where’s my phone?” “I’ll call it!” “It’s on vibrate!!!!” “Everyone SHHHHHHHH!!!” “I hear it!” “Found it!”
When someone special brushes their fingers through your hair.
Throwing food up in the air and catching it in your mouth.
Shouting out random numbers when someone is counting.
Great sex.
Making a wish and then having it come true.
Feeling like you truly belong somewhere. Like you don’t have to pretend to be anyone you’re not. Like you can just be yourself and you know that everyone around you will accept you for it.
Picking up something small off the floor with your toes.
Learning a new skill all by yourself.

Neliela izlase no 365 lietām kuras rada prieku! :)

melody in my dreams

2011-02-13T23:27:00.000+02:00

Do you hear me what I say?

Just never let me go

These words will never change

But we won't stay the same

There's a melody in my head

I cannot sing out loud

I never knew I'll be myself

And feel this way again

But you're the one who made me

Write me something new

save it for someone else

2011-02-11T23:31:00.000+02:00

Have you ever felt the way I feel?

Have you ever imagined yourself at my place?

Have you ever heard the words you say to me?

Have you ever tried to tell the truth?

Have you ever seen my tears?

Have you ever considered that things that you do might hurt me?

I might seem strong, painless and harsh. But we all have our weak points, don't we?

Even if I don't cry every time you hurt me, once in a while it all comes out and then it slowly kills me.

You don't have an idea, do you?

Don't waste your time on me

2011-02-11T23:10:00.000+02:00

I saw a crazy dream

Now I feel so lost

I move through maze of streets

I act like insane

But don't feel shame

Then I wake up

I don't know anymore

Where have I stuck?

Why do I play this game?

Was it a dream or my reality?

They ask too much from me

They need smart answers

But all I have are silly questions

I don't ask a damn from you all

I never did

Don't you waste your time on me

Don't judge me for mistakes I make

For some of you these are dreams

For me it's a new reality

no second chances

2011-02-06T22:15:00.000+02:00

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn’t supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You’ll have your heart broken and you’ll break others’ hearts. You’ll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you’ll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you’ve never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone’s hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don’t be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.

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he said he would never leave

2011-01-30T22:28:00.000+02:00

Atmiņu uzplaiksnījumi, nelieli smaržu un domu pavedieni, fragmenti, kas parādās un atkal pazūd. Atceros sava tēva skūšanās krēma aromātu, cik man tas likās īpašs. Atceros savus draugus ar kuriem veicu nedarbus, kāpu kokos un lauzu visu ko varēju salauzt, cik jautri tas likās. Atceros bērnības mīļāko lācīti, es nekad to neizlaidu no rokām, nekad nepametu vienu, - tas bija mans labākais draugs. Atceros savu pirmo suni, kurš pēc mammas stāstītā esot bijis ļoti nikns, bet man nekad pāri nedarīja. Parasti pēc nedarbu veikšanas devos slēpties pie viņa, jo tas bija mans pirmais sargātājs. Atceros savus smieklus - tie bija tik patiesi, skaisti un skaļi, tie piešķīra man īpašu, vieglprātīgu raksturu. Es atceros bērnību, kurā ik katrs mans solis likās brīnuma un prieka pilns, kur itin viss likās kā jauns atklājums. Bet laiki sāka mainīties. Ar laiku viss pamazām pazūd, atmiņas, tēli, smaržas, ir palikuši vien neskaidri domu mākoņi, kuri dod ieskatu tikai nelielā pagātnes daļā. Ar laiku ģimenes izjūk un vienīgais, kam tu vari uzticēties esi tu pats, draugi mainās un pazūd, rotaļlietas klusi sēž plauktā zem putekļu kārtas, mājdzīvnieki nomirst un to vietā nāk citi. Un smiekli nekad vairs nebūs tādi kādi tie bija. Tie nekad vairs nebūs tik patiesi, tie nekad vairs neizrādīs manu vieglprātīgo raksturu. Smiekli mani vairs nesilda un tie nešķiet tik aizraujoši, nekas vairs arī neliekas smieklu vērts. Tikai klusi uzsmaidu, aizmirstot par savu bērnišķīgo prieku, kas vēl aizvien manī snauduļo, un varbūt reiz modīsies. Šīs atmiņas tikai atgādina to kā man pietrūkst visvairāk - es, ne jau neīstā, bet tā īstā es, kas smējās, kas sapņoja, kas zināja, ka vienmēr viss ir labi. Kā gribētos atkal kā bērnībā apsēsties uz grīdas, paņemt rokās savu rotaļu lācīti un, spēlējoties ar to, dungot dziesmiņu par lāci, kas devās uz mežu, zinot, ka ir kāds, kas tevi sargā.

Laughing makes you live longer

2011-01-26T17:10:00.000+02:00

Noskaties līdz beigām!!!

feeling in my mind

2011-01-23T22:16:00.000+02:00

Kailums, klusums, tuksnesis. Kur gan viss ir palicis? Kur tas viss ir pazudis? Ne ūdens lāse, ne dzīvības stara. Smilšu putekļi, karsta saule svelmē. Ne paša mazākā mākonīša. Reiz tā bija pludmale, bet tagad. Kas ir palicis tagad. Vientulība plaisas, tuksnesis. Kur es eju? Tam nav ne gala, ne malas. Pat maitas putni mani pametuši vienu. Es pat priecātos par plēsoņu kādu, bet, nē, šeit nekā nav. Tukšums, klusums, tuksnesis. Viss ko spēju ir aizvērt acis. Lēni noslīgstu smiltīs. Bez bailēm, bez sāpēm, tikai no noguruma. Nogurusi meklēt to kas pazudis. Guļu svelmainā saulē. Vienaldzība, slāpes, tuksnesis. Es lēnām cenšos sakopot domas, saprast ko daru. Es nenožēloju neko. Viss ko esmu atstājusi vakardienā, bija tā vērts manai rītdienai. Tuksnesis, kluss, pat nedaudz skumjš. Iezogas pirmā vēja plūsma, beidzot. Tā vieglāk. Tā tuksnesis lēnām pārvērtīsies par oāzi. Plaisas sadzīs, klusums pazudīs. Tuksnesis atdzīvosies.

no more

2011-01-22T01:37:00.000+02:00

Don't let me disappear! Just help me not to loose my mind, not to run away, and help me to keep moving on.

I just don't want to waste my time anymore. I don't want to disappear.

...

2011-01-15T13:42:00.000+02:00

Tas ir viegli – būt nepieejamam. Atliek vien novērsties no citiem – un vairs nebūs jācieš. Mēs vairs nepakļausim sevi mīlestības, vilšanās un sabrukušu sapņu riskam. Tas ir viegli – būt nepieejamam. Mums vairs nebūs jāuztraucas, ka esam aizmirsuši kādam piezvanīt, mums vairs nebūs jādomā par cilvēkiem, kas mums lūdz palīdzību un mierinājumu. Tas ir viegli – būt nepieejamam. Atliek vien izlikties, ka dzīvojam ziloņkaula tornī, un mēs vairs nekad nenobirdināsim ne asaru. Atliek vien nodzīvot dzīvi, droši spēlējot savu lomu. Tas ir viegli – būt nepieejamam. Atliek vien palaist vējā visu, kas dzīvē ir labs.

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close your eyes and never regret things that you are about to do

2011-01-07T23:31:00.000+02:00

I have a strange desire inside me

A fire within me

And I hear a voice in my heart

Under these winter clouds

Neverendless falling snowflakes

I will dance with you all night long

World maybe is not fair

But this pain we must share

Sweetest song come out of old piano

I never played this song

I never dared to stop the rain

I will fall over and over again

Feeling like a fool right next to you

Thinking you're a little bit insane

But no matter what

We will dance - just like that

You will keep my fire light

Voice in my heart so loud

My strange desire to close my eyes

And kiss you

cleaning up the mess i made

2011-01-01T23:13:00.000+02:00

I read the stories of their lifes

I don't want to see them anymore

These crystal illusions

This flamable reality

Sweet dream

But not in my story

I flip the card

Like in some cheap card trick

Waiting for clock to click

But when it clicks

Nothing changes

Sore sugar stick in my hand

Are you ready to close the book?

Sticky pages hide part of me

I throw these books out

I have no doubt

Surface is clean

No other stories

Only mine, crazy story

crazy year

2010-12-31T15:58:00.000+02:00

Interesants gads man ir pagājis, noteikti zinu ka šis gads paliks manā atmiņā. Tik daudz kas ir noticis, bet šoreiz esmu par slinku lai rakstītu.

Esmu daudz dejojusi,

pabeigusi skolu,

sasniegusi pilngadību,

iepazinusi daudz cilvēku,

un ir arī iekšējās atklāsmes. Kā arī mans blogs ir kļuvis savādāks kopš paša pirmā ieraksta, kurš arī bija šogad.

Protams arī esmu veikusi lielas izvēles, kuras iespējams mainīs visu manu turpmāko dzīvi, un tomēr es zinu ka viss kas notiek notiek tikai uz labu.

Par nākamo gadu neko nezinu, plāna man nav. Ir idejas, bet par to vai tās piepildīšu domāšu nākamgad.Tikai jācer ka viss izdosies.

Ceru ka visiem šis gads ir bijis tik pat aizraujošs kā man. Un lai arī ir žēl no ši gada atvadīties, es zinu ka nākamais gads nesīs jaunas iespējas, interesantus notikumus, un daudz jaunu ideju.

Laimīgu jauno Kaķa/Zaķa gadu!

wheels on the bus go round and round

2010-12-30T18:35:00.000+02:00

You can close your eyes to things you don't want to see, but you can't close your heart to the things you don't want to feel.

You've got to take the good with the bad, smile with the sad, love what you've got, and remember what you had. Always forgive, but never forget. Learn from mistakes, but never regret.

I think that the only reason people hold onto memories so tight is because memories are the only things that dont change; when everybody else does.

Worrying is like a rocking chair: it gives you something to do, but doesn't get you anywhere.

Sometimes, when you're mad, you have the right to be mad, but you don't have the right to be cruel.

You're only young once, so be bad, break the rules, get caught & make it count.

Katrs solis kuru tu sper ir nepieciešams, lai sasniegtu to vietu, uz kuru tu esi izvēlējies doties.

Iešu parunāšos pats ar sevi. Vismaz zināšu, ka runāju ar vienu prātīgu cilvēku.

We dance round in a ring and suppose, but the secret sits in the middle and knows.

I never lie. I believe everything I say, so it's not a lie.

“Run your fingers through my soul. For once, just once, feel exactly what I feel, believe what I believe, perceive as I perceive, look, experience, examine, and for once; just once, understand.”

Miracles happen everyday, change your perception of what a miracle is and you'll see them all around you.

If I knew myself I would run away.

I recall I heard a sound

2010-12-24T00:21:00.000+02:00

What you gonna say?

When I finally will tell you the truth.

How ashamed I feel

That I want you by my side

Want you to be only mine

My mind is twisting and curling

I don't know how to get rid of this feeling

On icy glass is something written

Things I want to say

But I'm just afraid of my voice

How archer always shoot

And never make mistake

But my trembling foot

This time doesn't move your way

I recall all things I've said to you

It sounds like...so-so

I hope my brain just stops playing

So what you gonna say?

When you'll find out the truth

Of real me

got this feeling

2010-12-16T23:52:00.001+02:00

There is a happy tune in my head

I hear it over and over again

It makes me dare

And makes me scare

It gives me these memories

Some scents

And makes me smile

I feel the wind in my hair

Sun on my skin

Sand under my bare foot

Scent of strawberries

Taste of that neverending kiss

It takes me back to the summer

It gives me the freedom

Freedom that I may never have

It just knows what I feel

It caught me

It made me dare

And left me bare

i want to say it out loud, but i'm afraid

2010-12-15T17:15:00.000+02:00

Sensations all around

Too much they have found

Fireflies in the sky

Start a new day

These past few years

It's a part of our imagination

With one simple flash

We change it all around

With one gentle catch

We start to understand life

We used to turn on the music

But now we play it ourselves

We jump up high

Turn on some light

We kiss in darkest nights

And smile as we have never been hurt

We just throw out the pain

Forget all latest news

And spend this time together

that's life

2010-12-15T01:51:00.000+02:00

Vienmēr ir kāds, kas skatās uz tevi, kamēr tu skaties uz kādu citu.

xmas spirit _ slowly is coming

2010-12-11T14:04:00.000+02:00

Pasaule stikla bumbā

Sniegpārslas lēni krīt

Pilsēta svētkos slīkst

Laiks pasmaidīt

Dziesmai līdzi padziedāt

Zaķis reiz zem egles dāvanas slēpa

Mēs zem egles tagad zaķi slēpjam

Piparkūku smarža

Mandarīnu garša

Neuztraucies, pasmaidi

Nedaudz spīguļu

Nedaudz egļu bumbu

Lampiņas logā

Uzdejo pie dziesmas šīs

Pamosties

Sakrati šo stikla bumbu

Un kā mazs bērns

Mirdzošām acīm priecājies

run away and hide

2010-12-11T02:24:00.000+02:00

Es vēlos aizbēgt un noslēpties

Es vēlos apgriezt pasauli

Mainīt visu, visu

Es negribu vairs spēlēt šo spēli

Es vēlos pazust

Negribu vairs asaras liet

Negribu vairs skumt

Vēlos būt brīva

No pienākumiem

No meliem

No važām kas mani tur cieši

Un nesaprot ka ir laiks mani palaist

it's time

2010-12-09T10:41:00.000+02:00

Iedomājies, tu loterijā esi saņēmis šādu balvu:
Katru rītu banka tavā kontā ieskaita 86400 latu.
Taču šai spēlei ir savi noteikumi, jo katrai spēlei tādi ir!

Pirmais noteikums ir:
Visu, ko neesi izdevis dienas laikā, banka tev atņem, tu nevari
šo naudu tā vienkārši citā kontā ieskaitīt, tu vari to tikai izdot. Bet katru rītu, Kad tu pamosties, banka atver jaunu kontu ar 86400 latu nākošai dienai.

Otrais noteikums ir:
Banka var šo spēli jebkurā brīdī pārtraukt, jebkurā laikā pateikt: Viss ir beidzies. Spēle ir galā. Banka slēdz tavu kontu, un tu nesaņemsi vairs jaunu.

Ko tu darīsi????
Vai tu pirksi visu, ko vēlēsies????? Ne tikai priekš sevis, bet ar priekš tiem mīļajiem, kas tev ir blakus???? Varbūt pat tiem cilvēkiem, kurus tu nepazīsti, tā tu naudu neizdosi tikai priekš sevis... Varbūt tu mēģināsi izdot katru santīmu, lai izmantotu šo iespēju, bet varbūt ...

Īstenībā spēle ir dzīves realitāte: Katram no mums ir sava
\"Laika banka\".... Mēs tikai to neredzam...

Katru rītu, kad mēs pamostamies, mēs saņemam 86400 sekundes mūsu
dzīves, ko dāvina diena, un vakarā, kad aizmiegam, šis laiks
tiek mums atņemts... Tas, ko mēs šai dienā nepiedzīvojam, ir pazudis uz visiem laikiem, nogrimis nebūtībā, vakardiena ir pagājusi.

Katru rītu šis konts tiek no jauna piepildīts, bet banka var
kontu jebkurā laikā slēgt, bez brīdinājuma....

Ko tu katru dienu dari ar savām 86400 sekundēm? Vai tās nav vērtīgākas par tiem 86400 latiem?

Un tieši tādēļ sāc ar šo Jauno gadu dzīvot!!!!

NESAPŅO PAR SAVU DZīVI, BET IZDZīVO SAVU SAPNI!!!

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behind the mask

2010-12-09T09:12:00.000+02:00

Aizver un atver acis

Kā pasaule tik ātri kustas?

Mani spārni nespēj to panākt

Kāds teica ka mirklis ir mūžība

Bet kādēļ tas tik ātri aizsteidzas?

Varbūt tikai acīm tā liekas

Atver acis

Uzliec savu karnevāla masku

Varbūt tev palaimēsies

Varbūt tev būs kā Pelnrušķītes stāstā

Bet, ja nē

Tu vienmēr varēsi aizbēgt

Un atstāt stikla kurpīti

Kā zīmi - es šeit biju

Aizvērt acis

Un gaidīt pieneņu pūkas ziemā

Vai leduspuķes vasarā

Tikai nezaudē šo mirkli

Lai tas kā Kleopatra mūžīgi dzīvo

Aizver un atver acis

Un izbaudi to ko pasaule tev dod

i forget how to breathe for a moment

2010-12-08T14:35:00.001+02:00

Esi brīva, tici sev, esi tu pati un dzīvo tādu dzīvi, kādu tu to esi iztēlojusies...

Kaut arī neesi maz bērns...Tici...visam neiespējamajam

Apskāviens ir kā nieka grasis uz zemes. Tam nav liela vērtība līdz brīdim, kad to saņem kāds, kam tas patiešām nepieciešams.

Izbaudi to lietus deju, Izbaudi šīs karstas dienas, Izbaudi katru mirkli, Ar vai bez otra cilvēka... Vienkārši DZĪVO

We talked about old times, and it made me smile because you didn`t forget.

I don't think you realize how easily you make me smile.

People are so slow to love, but so quick to hate.

Kad pēdējoreiz Tu darīji kaut ko pirmoreiz?

You don`t know, do you? That in a crowded place, my eyes will always search for you.

Reizēm mēs nejauši atrodam to, ko neesam meklējuši. Un reizēm tas izrādās tieši tas, ko mēs patiesībā meklējam.

Boy: Want a hug? Girl: Nope. Boy: Did you hear me? Girl: Yes i did. Boy: alright so what did i say? Girl: Want a hug? Boy: if you insist

im trying to put lost pieces together

2010-12-03T15:26:00.000+02:00

I'm sitting at the broken piano

Butterflies all fly away

Without saying goodbye

The music I make

Has no sound of me

This is a new world

It makes my dreams come true

Streets so grey

People come and go

I just open my heart to world

But world don't care

Darkness all around

Just me and my music

I put my passion in

I close my eyes

And slowly tear falls down

Snowflakes of lost dreams

Fall all over me

I look up the sky

I want to know why

Me at the broken piano

World around me moves

But I don't care

This is my dream I'm living

a part of me

2010-11-22T18:30:00.000+02:00

We look for love

Not because it sucks to be alone watching movies;

Not because it's sad to eat meals alone;

Not because it's nice to cuddle up with someone in rainy days..

We look for love we want to be accepted

For the sloppy way we dress;

For the clumsy way we eat;

For our bad hair days, and

For the plainless of ourselves.

Because love is an act of acceptance from all our imperfections.

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it just happens over again and again

2010-11-19T17:36:00.000+02:00

Izkāp no sava "rāmja"un paskaties, kāda ir dzīve bez robežām!

Es neticu brīnumiem, bet, krītot zvaigznēm, joprojām turpinu ievēlēties vēlēšanos.

Nekas tā netuvina cilvēkus kā smaids. Un ar smaidu sākas katra patiesa mīlestība.

Sapņu nepiepildīšanos nevajag nožēlot, vajag pārliecinošāk sapņot.

Mums apkārt ir miljoniem cilvēku, taču tā īsti ir vajadzīgs viens.

Ja kādam tu esi tiešām svarīgs, tad viņš cīnīsies, lai arī kādas būtu viņa izredzes!

Kāpēc mēs aizveram acis, kad sapņojam ,kad raudam un kad skūpstāmies? Tāpēc, ka visskaistākās lietas, ko mums sniedz dzīve nevar saskatīt.

Grūti ir aizmirst to, kas bija! Vēl grūtāk - nedomāt par to, kas varēja būt

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He breaks my heart

But he doesn't know that

It's not the first time

But still it happens

I had to learn it years ago

But still I loose

Still I hope for more

Still I hope that there is someone

Who likes me the way I am

Who is not afraid

To look into my eyes

Who is gonna hold me tight

Till I loose my breath

Call me in the middle of night

Just to ask me out

And do some crazy stuff

Till my tears stop

And laugh never ends

I'm still dreaming

Still hoping

And still breaking my heart

Why not me??

2010-11-13T09:11:00.000+02:00

Can I choose?

Can I have?

World make some rules

They think we are fools

Dancing in the rain

Watching the storm passing by

Lossing mind to the music

Trusting without borders

Frustrated looks on us

We don't care

When we close our eyes

Traps loose they power

Tricks don't work

If only we knew

What we are meant to be

Shhhhh.....

Just tell me

Why not me?

if you can't get what you want, then take what you can get

2010-11-13T03:43:00.000+02:00

How silently she cares

But never stops

And never stares

To loose her mind

And see that sign

She looks through window

But there's just willow

She waits for him

But thats a stupid aim

The darkness fade

He didn''t came

For day n night

She waits for her knight

To free her heart

And make new start

It just makes me think

2010-11-07T01:06:00.000+02:00

We come and go

And never stop

We cry and smile

But never forget

We try and leave

Without any reasons

Why should we come back?

Our choise is made

Why can't we sometimes just go away?

We don't want to hurt someone

We cry in the middle of the night

Just to hide our weakness

We smile through pain

So we never see truth

We try to survive

Even when the pain is here

And we are afraid to leave

We hope to be happy

Better turn it all around

Show what you feel

Do what you want

And just be perfecly happy

mmm...so nice ;)

2010-11-03T15:51:00.001+02:00

What would you answer??

2010-11-01T17:01:00.000+02:00

I think about my life

Continue to breathe

Happiest memory - remembering my grandma and grandpa

Saddest memory - remembering the reason why they died

My dog

One person who said that he likes to cheer me up

Why did I survived?

Why can't I change my past and future?

Why can't I get answers to all the questions that I have?

Dancing, music, other people smiles, being alive

the way i feel can not be expressed

2010-10-29T17:12:00.000+03:00

I have something to say

But I can't find words

Chaos in my mind

I need it to rewind

Words don't stick together

But you don't bother

One dream by every night

Shows me some sunlight

A little missed piece

Impossible things

Can't change a thing

I'm just a human being

we can burn

2010-10-24T00:11:00.000+03:00

In this darkness

Heavy mystery in room

Music sound

Played with broken violin

I breathe in

I breathe out

Candle tries to stop

Flame slowly disappears

Voices in my head cheer up

Say you didn't know

Say you had to hide

Sparkling ideas

No not anymore

Freezing cold

Frost all around

Just untied, crazy

I pass by the border

But I have to freeze

Gotta give it all away

Look for one more chance

For last sip

Drain out and leave

Leave it cold, messy, dark

It was supposed to be forever, but now it's gone

2010-10-23T19:50:00.000+03:00

Konfektes pārvēršas cigaretēs.. Mājas darbi nokļūst miskastēs. Mobilie telefoni tiek izmantoti klasē.Aizturēšana kļūst par apturēšanu. Kola kļūst par šņabi. Divriteņi kļūst par auto. Apskāvieni pārvēršas par skūpstiem. Atceries,ka nokļūt "augstumā" bija uzrāpties rotaļu laukuma augstākajā punktā? Aizsargāties nozīmēja uzvilkt ķiveri pirms braukšanas ar velosipēdu?Atceries, Kad sliktākais,ko varēji dabūt no zēniem/meitenēm bija netīruma baciļi? Tēva pleci bija augstākā vieta uz Zemes, un māmiņa bija tavs varonis? Tavs sliktākais ienaidnieks bija brālis un māsa,atceries? Kad kautkur skrēji,bļāvi pārējiem,ka tas kurš būs pēdējais būs veca ola. Karš bija tikai kāršu spēle. Un vienīgās narkotikas ko tu zināji,bija klepus zāles. Īsu svārku velkāšana nepadarīja tevi par slampu. Visvairāk sāpju bija,kad sasiti ceļgalu,un "atā" teici tikai līdz rītdienai.

UN TU NEVARĒJI SAGAIDĪT LĪDZ IZAUGSI...

(Autoru nezinu)

neapstājies ne pie kādiem šķēršļiem

2010-10-21T15:07:00.000+03:00

Aizturiet asaras, aizturiet smieklus, aizturiet mīļumu, aizturiet naidu, aizturiet elpu, aizturiet, aizturiet, aizturiet… Ko visu tik nemāca aizturēt! Aizturiet asaras – nelaikā izlīs. Aizturiet smieklus – nevietā paspruks. Aizturiet mīļumu – nepelnīts dabūs. Aizturiet elpu… Tā pati aizraujas brīnuma priekšā. Neko no pasaules neaizturiet, īpaši – laiku. Veltīgas pūles. Bet sabrukt var.*

(Autoru nezinu)

just one more second that would last for one hour

2010-10-21T14:57:00.000+03:00

Kluss čuksts

Neskrien vēl

Paliec vēl mazu mirkli

Bet laika tam nav

Tu vari censties

Tu vari nelaist

Bet pat bezgalīgais laiks

Reiz stājas un visus prom dzen

Jaukie mirkļi

Vairs tikai atmiņai pieder tie

Tie aizskrien

Un paņem sev visu līdz

Vēlos tikai nedaudz

Nedaudz vairāk laika

Nedaudz ilgākus šos mirkļus

Mazāk atmiņu

Kluss čuksts

Piedod man jāiet

Piedod, bet nevaru palikt vēl ilgāk

happiness brings my inspiration

2010-10-16T13:10:00.000+03:00

Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself: I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn't arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I'm going to be happy in it.

Optimist: Person who travels on nothing from nowhere to happiness.

Most people are about as happy as they make up their minds to be.

The amount of happiness that you have depends on the amount of freedom you have in your heart.

Happiness is a perfume you cannot pour on others without getting a few drops on yourself.

My life has no purpose, no direction, no aim, no meaning, and yet I'm happy. I can't figure it out. What am I doing right?

It is an illusion that youth is happy, an illusion of those who have lost it.

When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us.

Gratefulness is the key to a happy life that we hold in our hands, because if we are not grateful, then no matter how much we have we will not be happy -- because we will always want to have something else or something more.

People spend a lifetime searching for happiness; looking for peace. They chase idle dreams, addictions, religions, even other people, hoping to fill the emptiness that plagues them. The irony is the only place they ever needed to search was within.

Success is not the key to happiness. Happiness is the key to success. If you love what you are doing, you will be successful.

I like nonsense, it wakes up the brain cells. Fantasy is a necessary ingredient in living, it's a way of looking at life through the wrong end of a telescope. Which is what I do, and that enables you to laugh at life's realities.

Never tell people how to do things. Tell them what to do and they will surprise you with their ingenuity.

I am imagination. I can see what the eyes cannot see. I can hear what the ears cannot hear. I can feel what the heart cannot feel.

"Imagination is more important than knowledge. For knowledge is limited to all we now know and understand, while imagination embraces the entire world, and all there ever will be to know and understand."

"If you can imagine it, you can achieve it; if you can dream it, you can become it."

"My imagination makes me human and makes me a fool; it gives me all the world and exiles me from it."

"To know is nothing at all; to imagine is everything."

"We live by our imagination, our admiration s, and our sentiments."

"The quality of the imagination is to flow and not to freeze."

so many words in the world

2010-10-15T16:05:00.000+03:00

Light so bright

That wasn't that tight

Moon in the room

Do we need a golden spoon?

Tree so free

What would it be without me?

Do you like these games?

Word games

I do

Brightly express me

Slightly have some sense

please don't take me away from myself

2010-10-15T15:48:00.000+03:00

That flipped coin

What is lost

Will never be found again

These gone emotions

Once survived

But now forgoten

Lost somewhere

And I don't know where

Empty spaces in memory

Huge holes of possible mistakes

Who makes them disappear?

Who collects these lost things?

And flipped coins

let's enjoy

2010-10-12T22:48:00.000+03:00

I want to take

A little piece of world with me

Does not matter where I'll go

Does not matter what will be

But I will take

This case with me

Time after time

I will open it and see

See the little world

Will tell the story never told

To the others too

And they will take

One piece too

So whole amazing world

Will be with us

For now and ever

let me play a little bit

2010-10-10T02:41:00.000+03:00

Standing on the edge

What edge?

Not going to tell

Playing with wind

Forward and backward

Swinging with no fear

Who will catch me?

Who will let me fall?

One step there

One step here

Oh, damn edge

So small and big at the same time

Only I can choose

To tumble down

Or step a little back

Standing on the edge

La, la, la, with no fear

What edge?

I'm not going to tell

i will take one dream and make it come true today

2010-10-08T22:02:00.000+03:00

Warm sun in the winter

You have never seen it?

You don't believe me?

But I have seen it

And more

I believe that shooting star

Will make my wish come true

That my sadness

Will fade away with one smile

I believe that fairytales come true

And money doesn't bring happiness

I believe that when we die

We become an angels

And have our wings to fly

I sometimes believe too much

And start to lose my belief

But I'm sure for one thing

That every day of our lifes

Can be a perfect dream

If only we believe

last leaf

2010-10-08T21:31:00.000+03:00

He painted his masterpiece

He painted one leaf

But saved one life

In the morn sun came

That last leaf said

Hold on baby

Just like I do

People that can't see

That don't hear

And don't care

They do not understand

Story of this painter

So I will hold on

Like that last leaf

Painted by him

could you stop for a moment and listen

2010-10-08T21:24:00.000+03:00

I need an answer

I need to understand

I start to think

Till my head blows

I have to find a trust

Trust in something different

I will take one star

I will let her fall

I will let her disapear

Think Think Think

No, I don't want to

I need something

But what?

Must think

Although my head blows

come with me, and just run away with me

2010-10-03T23:36:00.000+03:00

Everyone knows

But I don't care

Let them speak

Let them see

I've chosen my way in life

My little journey

I don't have a goal

And I don't need it

I'm happy the way I am

I have my little inspiration

If only I could go to Paris and feel that magic air of love

2010-10-01T02:48:00.000+03:00

I want to go outside

And run

Through autumn leaves

Through winter snow

And Stop

At sunny spring

I want to see the sun

And walk through Paris streets

To see the love in city

And dance in amazing Rome

Till sunrise in the morning

And meet new friends in London

To have some inspiration

I want to fly out high

And see the moon

Be aware of winters doom

To dance in midnight

And laugh about the runners

To draw a little picture

Of me in boundless world

To dream a little more

About these thrilling journeys

Forget what I'm saying

Today I'm lying

I'm not going to go outside

Today I'll stay in warm

And enjoy the flame

Flame of passion dreams

let the sun shine

2010-09-23T13:53:00.000+03:00

Colours of the life

Little simple things

Easy words

We can see it every day

These rainbows after rain

Warm sun after winter

Autumn yellow leafs

World is not made out of black and white

It's not as grey as you see

Open your damn eyes

And see this world in diferent sight

Take one white paper sheet

Make it colourful

Use all the colours

Paint your life

Make it bright

free to be who I am

2010-09-23T13:30:00.000+03:00

It's dark and white

But sometimes pink

Then whole world stops

And turns around

Scent of magic beans

And it's hard to crawl

I start to believe in world

Words in mess

No sensible toughts

Little fairy sings to me

The song I know for ages

The bird that knocks at the door

And silence

It just disapears

I have no other choise

But let the world come in

There's no sorrow in my heart

Not a hole in soul

Just let it all to go

some broken words

2010-09-19T00:27:00.000+03:00

You are the breath I breathe

You are the step I take

You are the dream I dream

Somewhere around the world

Somewhere deep in earth

Somewhere far in universe

This key that lock these doors

This door that opens some room

This room that tell about me

I could make it round and round

I could stop it now

But what if I don't

What if I can't breathe you any more

If I can't take this step

If I can't have this dream

There will be no world

No earth

No universe

I won't lock these doors

I won't open this room

I'm not going to tell this story

I'm never going to stop

I'm never going to forget

It could last forever

But now it's like never

Ūdens trauks

2010-09-12T21:39:00.000+03:00

Kādai vecai sievietei Ķīnā bija divi lieli trauki, kas bija iekārti kārts galos, kuru viņa nēsāja sev uz pleca. Vienam traukam bija plaisa, tajā pat laikā otrais bija nevainojams un allaž pārnēsāja visu ūdeni. Garā ceļojuma laikā no strauta līdz mājām ieplīsušais trauks bija tikai līdz pusei pilns.

Diendienā tas turpinājās veselus divus gadus: sieviete uz mājām pārnesa tikai pusotru ūdens trauku. Protams, ka veselais trauks ļoti lepojās ar saviem panākumiem. Bet nabaga ieplīsušais trauks kaunējās no sava trūkuma; viņam bija žēl, ka viņš pildīja tikai pusi no sava darba. Pēc diviem gadiem visa tā, kas tika vērtēts kā rūgta neveiksme, vienā dienā viņš avota malā uzrunāja sievieti.

«Man ir tāds kauns, ka plaisas dēļ manā sānā ūdens nemitīgi izlīst, ejot pa ceļu uz mūsu mājām.»

Vecenīte pasmaidīja: «Bet vai tu esi ievērojis, ka tavā takas pusē aug ziedi, bet otrā trauka pusē nē? Tas ir tāpēc, ka es allaž esmu zinājusi par tavu trūkumu, tāpēc iesēju puķu sēklas tavā ceļa pusē, un katru dienu, atgriežoties atpakaļ, tu tos laisti. Divu gadu laikā es varēju vākt šos ziedus un izpušķot galdu. Ja tu nebūtu tāds, kāds tu esi, tad nebūtu arī šī skaistuma mājas izpušķošanai.»

Katram no mums ir kāds unikāls defekts. Bet šīs plaisas un spraugas veido mūsu kopīgo dzīvi tik interesantu un vērtīgu. Jums jāpieņem cilvēki tādi, kādi viņi ir, meklējot viņos labo.

I want to move, I want to feel, I want to dance

2010-09-08T19:51:00.000+03:00