If that's ok, I don't mind

Sometimes I think I don't think at all.

How come I have made so many mistakes, still I haven't learnt anything from them. How come I don't even know myself, how come I can change my mind million times a day. How come I can make up a thousand lies about me, but I don't know even a single truth about me. Everyone who tried to understand me but failed - they said that I'm going nowhere. So these pointless words repeat themselves in my head over and over again like some broken record. I turn music louder and louder to cover the truth. But if I close my eyes I still can see their faces full of disappointment. Then I go out and run, still I know I can't run away. I'm spining till I'm getting dizzy. How can I find the right answers, how come I don't even have right questions. But now it doesn't matter - cause I know sooner or later my time will come.

How come I am who I am?

silent dreams

Un es zinu, ka mēs atkal klusējam
Patiesību vairs neatklājam

Pagājušajā pilnmēness naktī

Mēs nokritušās zvaigznes meklējām

Šoreiz mēs skatīsimies kā ievas zied

Pat, ja ziemeļu vēji mūs projām dzīs

Gaisā vēl jūtams saspringums

Ko mēs vēl gaidām?

Vārdus, kas mums pastāstīs?

Vai kādu, kas pasakā mūs ievīs?

Mēs gaidām vēlos sapņus

Un klusi ceram kaut tie piepildās

 

it just wouldn't be me anymore

The devil tears

They burned my eyes

I put on another patch

Feel there's something I neeed to catch

The truth that lies behind

Is nowhere to be found

Year after year

On a new years eve

At midnight I burn my idol

While lights of burning soul

With old silly fool

Take my old violin

With tender sound they sing

It's time to join in

way too far to go

If your head stucks in a cloud

Don't shout all around

If you come here and there

Don't tell you don't care

When you're left all alone

Then pick up your phone

You can swallow your pride

And find that your kind

You're not on your own

Don't you dare let me down

Can you tell when it's wrong?

Can you keep it strong?

If only for one more day

You keep it yourself

no use of fighting anymore



waiting seems too long

Someone like you

I shouldn't miss so much

But I do

It doesn't make no sence as such

Once or twice is not enough

It's early in the morning

Every step is too rough

I'm the one who's leaving

Someone like me

You cannot forget

You want me to see

In another set

We cannot play one more game

That's such a shame

:)



I reach and touch the sky

As you took me up in the sky

I know I never felt so alive

You took me of the ground

Without any sound

They said my dreams were wrong

But I always kept strong

Now look who's in the sky

Who has learnt how to fly

Soon I'll be back on the ground

But I'm not willing to turn around

You told me not to be scared

Thank you that you dared

To me take there

Where I've never been before

Happy Bday!!!

Es atkal kļūstu par gadu vecāka. Iesākums dienai bija lielisks - pēc pusnakts es dabūju savu dzimšanas dienas deju, kuru man kā par pārsteigumu sagādāja māsa. Pagājušo gadu ar mani to deju nodejoja pieci puiši, bet šogad bija tik daudz, ka es pat nepaspēju saskaitīt. Tāds neliels prieciņš, un man tādas aizdomas, ka šī ir viena no manām foršākajām dzimšanas dienām.

Vēl vēlējos atklāt nelielu jaunumu - šovasar braukšu kā aupair uz UK. Tāpēc liela iespējamība, ka šeit rakstīšu vēl retāk nekā pašlaik.

Un tagad man vēl jāatmet viens no saviem sliktajiem paradumiem, jo izrādās ka visiem nav vienalga.

Even the best fall down sometimes

First impression comes only once, but it doesn't mean that it will stay the same. It can be changed.

It seemed so simple, and suddenly it became so hard. Your perfect smile came out of nowhere, it completely took my mind. But I feel that it is a little too late.