"Ābolu sviests"
Mūzika iesitas asinīs un riņķo kā dzīvsudrabs, un es aizmirstu visu, visu... paliek tikai sajūsma un ļaušanās ritmam. Pazūd gan grīda zem kājām, gan jumts virs galvas – es jūtos tā, it kā lidotu starp zvaigznēm.
18.09.24
01.09.24
Don't wait
No. World did not break for those few moments when she let herself be vulnerably broken. She would wrap her arms around her, tightly. She would find comfort and healing in her own hold. Let the oceans from her eyes pour. Break down for a little bit, just a minute or two. Before she lets herself go from her own embrace and dries herself off. Lifts herself up and while proudly wearing herself she keeps moving on.
30.08.24
That day
Something else broke in me that day. I am sure it was already chipping away for a while, but that day, in just a minute one, it broke all the way. I cannot name it, I can only feel it. It was there one moment and next, none of it was left. As all the other broken things in me, it will stay with me. Only with me. Just another broken thing to the collection of broken things of my mind.
19.08.24
I deserve to be well
I deserve to be well.
I deserve all the good things they said I cannot have. I do deserve them. And I can find thousand of reasons why I should not, but instead I want to choose to repeat to myself the same words over and over again.
I deserve to be well.
I deserve to be happy.
I deserve to be loved.
21.06.24
Kinda like that
Whenever I had a chance for a night like this. I dare to say I longed for it for so long. To fall asleep gazing into her wonderful eyes, experiencing her melancholy that she caries within, but never gives in.
With my hands on her naked skin. Traveling along the highs and lows. Exploring the curves she has acquired, feeling the scars that she has gained. All that life has given her, but she never gives in.
Softly, warmly trace my fingers up her spine until I reach her soft hair, brush my fingers through it over and over again, but even if she trembles from my touch, she never gives in.
I might lose my sleep this night, there is no regret in this. I would be ready to lose myself in her everynight, she is a painting and I want to count every brushstroke on her. Savour the simple take of this moment, she is my muse, but she never gives in.