Amazed by you

You amaze me by the way you do. The way you look my way, and sometimes come too close. The way you make me feel when reach within my soul. The way you talk, the way you dance.  I might forget this all in a week or two, or might not forget at all. I might be a fool, that seems too smart. And I see that only in your eyes I'm someone who I'm really not. 

stop before I fall deeper

Could I stand right next to you, maybe even get a little closer? I'm still scared, but I feel the best right next to you. I've been scared for a while, I've been here once. I'm afraid that what I want might not be the best thing I should have. I had a feeling like this once, and I should learn from mistakes. I shouldn't allow myself to get hurt this way again.

I don't want to start writing letters like I did years ago. What's the point of that, it's not like he's going to read them. I'm just going to keep myself together, better than I did before. I will not go back to looking weak in someones eyes again. I'd rather roam around these days on my own.

today

 Forgive me, about tomorrow, I'm not sure if I could make wrong of it. Sorry about yesterday, I won't try to fix it anymore. After the dark will set down, before midnight, right when you can hear the sound of first owl - it's today. You know who and where I'll be waiting. And if you decide not to come, or you're just too lost to find your way, don't worry. Today even the thought will count. Knowing that we'll meet, for the first time again. Not tommorow but today. In a charming way we just know every day is today. 
Bare it in your mind... Today we'll meet. Today...