31.12.19

See me again


10 years of old hopes to die. Of new ones made. And I am not sorry, for choices I made. I can't judge if you are for yours. 
I had battles to run away from. Some to face head on, I cannot let fear overtake me. I can't judge if you had to run away from yours. 
I used to have a plan for life, now just have to take it one day at a time. At least for now I am still moving on. 
Don't judge me for all I am and will be in next 10 years to come. 

26.12.19

Not at all

Any key will be able to open the door to the world within. Only choose carefully, as on the key itself lays the choice of what you will see inside. You know how we all wish to open just exactly right door of what we wish to seek within.

19.12.19

Step by step

When all these years pass by, just within your mind. How do you find a way out of those deep labyrinths, when part of you say that you must stay put. Are you ready to face your fears that await outside?

Almost near


Can you feel it?
That moment where two hearts beat just too fast, almost like shooting stars. A little akward, crazy how scary it gets. When two eyes meet in a gaze, and it makes a whole world spin a lot faster. And could be the worst place for it, but it is always the perfect place. 
Can you feel it?
That moment where two hearts sync in the same rhytm. Where holding hands just makes them tremble even more. It is barely visible how heads lean in. Slowly..slooowly..sloooowly..
Can you feel it? 
Whispers that turn to kiss for the first time. How two strangers can light up the night, and make the stars fall at day. 
Can you feel it?
I wish I could.
Don't kill the curiosity, but also don't let it kill the cat.

14.12.19

Burried too deep

Silence the world just for me. 
Once in a very long time listen to the song my lost soul sings. You don't have to believe a word she says, since she was the one who chose to run away. You don't have to be amazed by the made up stories she tells. You don't have to say that it might be easy, you don't have to say anything at all. 
Just listen.

03.12.19

Believing close

Just take off our clothes, throw them all around. Interwine within the darkness, let the cold air in as we feel the heat from each other as the only thing existing. Thigh to thigh, chest to chest. Palm to palm. Skin to skin. Let us just dance slow.
Pull out candles, turn to stars that call out all the demons we hid. Laugh too loud within our own minds. Hysterically nervous we have to let go. Fall down from overtaking life. Bit by bit we lay down. Skin to floor. Shoulder to shoulder. Gaze within. Let us just lay there still.
From fingertips till the end of our tip toes, we need to start counting all the skin on us. Brush each other, to lift up every tiny hair on our body. Shake the cold air inside out. Let us just shiver together. 

Got us to feel the comfort and stress the moment like this brings.
Easy, slowly.
Breathing, at the same time we stopped living. Feeling, but still kinda numb. Wrong, but so right.
As if it is anyone's care if we lay here, naked. Guessing, making up but never really knowing how. Skin to skin. Gaze to haze. This is the only moment we will ever call to be true. Within the comfort, yet still on the verge of uneasy. Restrained to rules of chaos. Let us just count the time quietly.