Once the dark rolls in. I close my eyes and drown in my sorrow tears. I want to share. Want to be weak and vulnerable, want to be softly held. 

But who would stay?

Who wouldn't say I am too much? 

Who would find the stars in my broken stormy eyes? Who would want to hear how my dull days go by? Who would look at me and see me beautiful, even when I am not? Who would find a way to love me, when I am just an inconvenience? 

Once the night rolls over. I will be just a silent noone, someone whose name you won't recall. Someone who disappeared in misty hills of who was she. Just a forgotten whisper, noone heard.

I will just go on as it is. One slow day at a time, till another night comes in.

 

Rumble

 Let the snow fall tonight all humble

              And my mind around you tumble

Want to get to you much closer

Make you in this winter warmer

Let your eyes in mine linger

                  I cannot stop to wonder

Ouh my

I do not know why

                    I am around you, so shy

Do it again

 

I want to fall down deep into your arms. Become a starless night that takes your whole soul in. Wrap myself all around, leave not a single bit of your skin free from my touch. Meet your eyes in places inbetween. So I thought that was all we could.

Instead I am a river lost, floating far away, to places noone dares to go anynore. Or am I a rock, cold and unbreakable in my own mistakes. I am a vase you broke in a haste, then walked away without a second glance. Now you won't even dare to look to my face. I guess you didn't know that I could.