I am coming back, not broken anymore

How could I? Betray myself?
Once it took me some time to know who I am. I knew who I am, who I want to be.
But then..
But then?
I kinda forgot, I kinda broke in pieces. Kinda lost most important part of me.
But here..
But here?
Here I am, ready to rise to be who I am.

Do you?

Do you remember? Do you remember?

 Do you?

Do you remember how it all felt. Morning sun on your naked skin, taste of kiss, and smell off his skin.

Once your mind can't tell no difference between reality and imagination, can you tell me. Can you tell me? 

Can you?

Can you still feel his hair in your arms. Full moon blinding eyes, dancing in the rain before we lost our minds. I am still sane. 

But tell me once before I can't tell a difference between reality and my insanity, do you remember. Do you remember? 

Do you?

They wont let me see

After all none of us knew if we would have another night to gaze at stars so peacefully. She moved on the red plaid blanket and opened a place for me. 

There we were, lying next to each other. Waiting, getting ready to be invited into her mind. Silence that feels almost embarrasing, like something was lingering in the air, but what was it I couldn't tell. 

She kept her hand next to my side. Deep breath, deep calm breath, I slowly moved mine next to her. Kinda trembling, worried I moved my fingers over her hand. She caught me in the act and squezzed my hand letting me know she wants this too. Slowly, without a rush we turned our heads toward each other. She smiled at me gracefully, gazed deeply into my eyes. I think I had never seen such beautiful stars as I saw that night. Since most of them were hidden in her eyes. 

Someday I will write down this story just to remember forever.

I might be a fool to keep these dreams and hopes inside my head. But on some days those are the only good things I have.

Broken teeth, mirror shards

Why do we keep
Running
Running
All around
Broken shards of
Mirror
Mirror
My own self reflection
Can we catch
Up
Up
To stay where we are
Everyone around us just
Laughs
Laughs
What a fools we are
Why do we keep
Running
Running
Round, never catching up

Never been, so will I?

I sit in an empty room. Waiting, always waiting and never loosing hope. I don't lock my doors, I invite everybody. Come in, please do come in. Even just for a second would be enough for me.
Days turn by. Still waiting. Years pass by. Still hoping.
I sit in an empty room. I drew and wrote all over walls, wishing that someone would care to come and see. Come in, please do come in. I will keep waiting for someone who would care enough to come in. I can't give up yet.

We are nothing, but a dust on a dust, flying through the dust in a made up timeline.

Stayed behind

All I have is this old, hard and cold table. I put my head on it. I can hear it creak, as if to complain. I am sick of hearing your stories.
My own voice disappears in void. And tears grow old, my eyes wear the loneliness away. I need to tell him another story.
He creaks. No, not again, not a sound I want to hear. He creaks.
I sit silently. Reminiscence. My own quiet soul grows weary. Knowing that even he can't bear me.
All I have is this old, hard and cold table. I put my head on it wishing it was a warm shoulder. And some ears who would not be tired of another story.

It did not matter

Eventually, it will all be alright. It's easy to forgive and forget, only for your own sake. It is alright, for most of it at least.

I was your maybe