After all

I gave them all the freedom
And put myself in my own prison
Every day I cut a part of me
Give even more away
I feel no pain
No joy
Nothing
I feel no anger
No hope
Nothing
Maybe one day I will gain my freedom
Maybe I gain nothing
And die here all alone

I will play if you ask

Let's play hide and seek.
Let's see who can find who first.
I know rules seem so simple at first.
Only if we play in a marked area, but what if...
We make it harder and lets say play all around.
Everywhere!
Playing hide and seek here and there.
What if we all hide?
If noone out there sets out to seek for us.
What if we are  bound to never be found?

Smile. Again.

I look around.
Surround myself with fake people all around. And smile and pretend.
Inside I feel the end of me.
But smile and pretend.
Feel the poison travel through my veins.
Slowly day by day it kills me. Nearing me to the day I'm gone.
I stopped fighting...
I just let it be.
Just smile and pretend.

They divide in two parts.

One that just doesn't care.

One that will just try to kill me, by all means possible.

Here I am. Looking for a light in a dark.

Searching for some warm in the middle of the snow. 

So, I run.

Run away to another world. 

Go back

Can someone hear me?

We are trapped.
We are trapped souls. Trapped in our own minds and bodies.
Do you ever feel like you could fly but you have no wings? Do you ever feel like you want to rip off your skin to show the world how you really look? We are trapped.
We are trapped and screaming for help. We are trapped, but noone can hear us.
Only thing we can do is add some ink and colour to our skins. And thats ok. That's how we grow wings, how we show, who we really are.  Only way to make this body feel at least a bit like home, not prison.
After all we are just trapped souls waiting, until we are released.

A place I am going

If there is noone, I will play all black and white.
Come out in red and fur.
Own the whole damn place like it's mine.
Say hello!
Become in a shape, you havent seen me before.
Build up dragons to shoot you in to the ashes.
In the end I will tell you to love me the way I am.
But wait that's not it..
Right before the end, I will become white and innocent.
Once it all is over, will lie on top of all that I did and throw some of nothing in air.
It will be all.
It will be just me.
It will be just a dream.

Demons

"No matter what we breed

We still are made of greed"

Maybe happier

Turn, turn, turn. Turn myself inside out. Pull apart like a house, brick by brick. Bone by bone. 

Feel, feel, feel. Have to feel something. A life, a blood going through my veins. Drop by drop. 

Hear, hear, hear. Hear this loud song throbbing through my brain. Know every word, hear how silence stops. Note by note.

Be, be, be. Be who I am. Not someone they want me to be. Alone, but true to who I am. Day by day.

W E A R E N O W

I feel your breath on my shoulder. Slowly you walk up my waist and stop. Lean in for a kiss on my neck.  Whisper a word or two. Our desires take us over.
I pin you to the wall and kiss you like I haven't kissed in a while. Let my hands be all over you while we slowly fall down on floor. Our desires take us over.
Other time, it's just a game between us. A game I wanna play.

Leave

It's all fake. And I can't seem to find a way out.
None off this exist, none of this is real.
Reality is a myth, creation of our imagination.
If only someone would point me the way out.

Why are we not

Is this all we are living for?

One

Within the dark, dark night, let myself sink in to it. I let my tears rush down my cheeks.  But only in the darkest night, while the rest are sleeping and can't see me at my weakest. My only wish is to be taken away from all the pain. To disappear in to nothingness that I am, become a ghost that noone knows is there.
A tear here and there, I brush it away. Hide it back where it belongs. Hide all the thoughts and dreams. Hide myself.
Face the reality only when I'm strong again. Am I really? Am I ever strong enough to deal with myself for another day?

Let it

They come and go

And I stay

Just like that

They open and close

And I stop

Just like that

They stay and run away

And I am

Just like that

They come and go

And

I 

Can't

Just like that

Goodnight