Why are we not

Is this all we are living for?

One

Within the dark, dark night, let myself sink in to it. I let my tears rush down my cheeks.  But only in the darkest night, while the rest are sleeping and can't see me at my weakest. My only wish is to be taken away from all the pain. To disappear in to nothingness that I am, become a ghost that noone knows is there.
A tear here and there, I brush it away. Hide it back where it belongs. Hide all the thoughts and dreams. Hide myself.
Face the reality only when I'm strong again. Am I really? Am I ever strong enough to deal with myself for another day?