Nothing to fear

It is not the fear that I fear. It is the hope I get to have again. Nothing worse than getting hopes up for a thousand times all over again, only to end up in the same empty places.
I have millions of fears in me, and I step over them every day. Yet the hope is the only one that gets me in the hardest ways.. 

Never did

I liked their voice

The noise 

The space 

They take

Until I did not

I liked myself

Silence

Whispers

Until I did not

I became a wild card

In a game

I was not sure I knew

How to play properly

I liked the mystery

The unknown

The adventure

Until I did not

I liked their touch

Smell

And the way they looked at me

Until I did not

I became a lone soul

Wandering

Not quite here or there

I guess

I liked it that way

Do you ever?

She is a dream I long to have.

Pinned against the wall tightly, whisper in her ears. Do you want me now?

Brush my lips down her sweet skin, my fingers twine down all her soft curves. Say her name, quietly. Do you want me now?

Steady breaths, slow down, do not let her burst just yet. She is to be consumed without a rush. Do you want me now?

And just as she knows she wants you the most...

Let her tremble.

Let her scream.

Let her go free.

Let her forget her own name.

Do you want me now?