For someone treating you this way, there is no way back. No matter how hard it gets,or lonely. The bruises he left, no time in the world could  take back. And you god damn well know you won't be the only one left bruised. 

You are strong enough to get through this. Even if you have to do it on your own. Dear, forgiving is just the easy way for your mind, but never let him open your bruises up again.

 Do you really think that you deserve be treated this way? You are worth something, just because you are you. I know you since day one. 

You deserve better.