Did i ever

I can't. I can't understand the reasons, for these things. 

I can't. I can't stop blaming myself for all that went wrong. Was it really me? Is there even any way to find out truth.

If within all that you blame me, it really was all me. Then why did I choose to stay?

I can't. I simply can't understand why. You were the person I was supposed to be loved by, be supported by. Instead I just got blamed. 

Maybe you are the reason I can't seem to love. 

But maybe it is all just me, asking for too much. If I ask for less I won't be able to fill the void you left in me? 

And that I still can't.