My dear, you are not alone, even when you are all on your own. When you will need your hand to be held, when you will need a healing hug - there will always be that one person that is the strongest one you know.
That person is you.
You are the only one that I know who even after all these years refuse to fade away into the pain. Do not lose the hope. Even when noone around you can understand this. It just means they have never been there, and you are here still every day.
Just keep pushing through, hold yourself strong. My dear, you are never alone, as long as you have yourself.