Hole

One on the floor
One under the couch
One thrown into garbage
One lost in the snow
One given to someone, but forgotten who
One taken, but can't be forgotten
One bleeding and aching
One in the next meal will be breaking
One seen on the screen
One hidden in forest
One hanging in closet
One - another piece of me will be falling
And lying here unable to move, and grasp me correctly
Waiting for this whole madness to pass
While life hits me so hard with words
Nobody cares

Courage

I wanna feel the strenghth
Be in control
Pin you down and scream
Be the one to say
STOP
I wanna feel the breath
Make your tears awake
Push you out of your control
Be the one to say
GO
I wanna dress up
Break up
Make sure you can't when I can
Be the one to say
LEAVE

Dance
Dance with me
Dare to face me
To turn around and grab my hand
Spin me in a dance that I lead
Pill here and there
A drink lost somewhere
Through our jibber jabber
Dare to face me
Move back to be a fear
To be a horror
Stay here and there
And become lost somewhere
Through all fucking and breaking
Dare to face me
Spin your pillow to the cold side
Under your blanket or above it
Say something here and there
Keep the last words for one day
Through tomorrow or today
Dare to face me at last

Fallen

Do we  really know what we want?
Not just something they tell us we should be.
Not just something  they keep feeding in to us of what we should be.
Not just the idea, but simple reality.
Do we really know what is real and fake?
Do we just pretend like we know for sure?
If we would just stop.
Stop.
Look around.
Decide.

Remember to forget

Push me right or left
It wont make me change
Push me to the front or back
I will still hold my stand
Let go of my hand and let me fall
The fall will not make me blunt
Pick me up if you must
Your wishes I cannot grant
You can turn to leave, or come back
My mind however has been made up

For million questions there are no answers

If for one day
Only one day
We all would speak truth
Truth of what we done
What we wish we would have done
Things that we would never dare to do
Truth of all dreams we hold
And nightmares that we try to turn away
All the reality we faced, but hid from others.
If for one day
Only one day
Reasons
Mistakes
All the love and hate
Would flow all over us as a waterfall.

After all

I gave them all the freedom
And put myself in my own prison
Every day I cut a part of me
Give even more away
I feel no pain
No joy
Nothing
I feel no anger
No hope
Nothing
Maybe one day I will gain my freedom
Maybe I gain nothing
And die here all alone

I will play if you ask

Let's play hide and seek.
Let's see who can find who first.
I know rules seem so simple at first.
Only if we play in a marked area, but what if...
We make it harder and lets say play all around.
Everywhere!
Playing hide and seek here and there.
What if we all hide?
If noone out there sets out to seek for us.
What if we are  bound to never be found?

Smile. Again.

I look around.
Surround myself with fake people all around. And smile and pretend.
Inside I feel the end of me.
But smile and pretend.
Feel the poison travel through my veins.
Slowly day by day it kills me. Nearing me to the day I'm gone.
I stopped fighting...
I just let it be.
Just smile and pretend.

They divide in two parts.

One that just doesn't care.

One that will just try to kill me, by all means possible.

Here I am. Looking for a light in a dark.

Searching for some warm in the middle of the snow. 

So, I run.

Run away to another world.