Let me

I could not believe someone could ever bring color back into my life.

 I think, think and think until I overthink. I want to draw him with all the wildest colors I own. 

I just do not know where to begin just yet.

Tangled in my mind

 

 

Upside down

 Desires have nothing for me, on the days when someone makes my heart beat a little faster. A little more excited - even when I cannot say for sure I am ready..

But I did leave the door open just a little, hoping someone would want to come in. Letting him get into my mind just like I did once before. Looking into my eyes that I have hidden for so long. I just cannot hide from his eyes. I do not want to hide anymore.. 

I want my heart to beat, not stay still as if it has forgoten how to breathe. I want to feel a little excited and feel desired. I want to laugh even when I cannot remember how. I want to be next to him, let him look into my eyes..

I just want so much even when I think I want nothing at all..

Nightly

 Mild desires - in my mind become wild. I could give it all to be there right now. 

With my body pressed against yours. Pulling you closer, feeling your skin from your shoulders down to your thighs. Trace my fingers down your naked skin as if you were a map unknown. Slowly lean in. Blow cold air on your neck. Kiss you passionately, deeply, kinda wildly.

Feel your body pressed against mine. You pulling me closer. Feeling your hands on my skin from my neck down to my thighs. Trace your fingers down my skin, as if I were a map whose secrets you look to unveil. Slowly lean in. Blow cold air on my neck. Kiss me, wildly, deeply, kinda a little more passionately.

Mild desires, get a little bit wild in my mind. Would you want to be there?

Remind

I filled the cracks inbetween, they were not perfect. Neither am I.
I am just a cracked face, cracked body, cracked teeth and cracked mind. I might be fixable. Not perfect. Not fit to anybodys expectations.
And whenever you dare to come and fix these cracks, I want you to mind, it will not be perfect. Neither am I. Neither are you.

Not worth a damn

Let me tell you exactly how I feel.

Let's imagine you have bought a box of a brand new puzzle. You twist and look at every piece, once, twice and all over again. Once the puzzle is done you realize there is one extra piece. It does not fit here, or anywhere. All your puzzles have all the pieces. Maybe somewhere out in the world there is a puzzle missing it's piece. So you put this one piece aside, you tell stories to all your friends how you have this extra piece, useless piece. You laugh how somebody will have one missing. And then once you are done, you twist it one more time before you throw it out for good. It is a trash to you. And let's be honest it is a trash to everybody else too. Just a funny story to forget after a while. I feel like piece that was never meant to find my puzzle. Just a piece of trash, not worth a damn.

Until next

On a magical night I twined and interwined all the flowers wild. I chanted to myself, for love, for home, for someone who would be like wise me. I threw it on a magic oak. What was done, was done.

And when the wind blew it changed his ways. It made me light and swept me away. My half closed eyes could finally see the end of darkness. 

For the love was right beside me, even when I could not see it. For the home was right here, it was built by my own hands.

And for all that comes next, well darling, I will hush for now. How it comes or goes I do not know, but I am curious indeed...

My freedom