surreal world

Sometimes I feel like I live in some surreal world. I feel like my mind inhabits this strange body, that doesn't feel like mine. What is going on I think then. I feel like sometimes I'm at the wrong place with the wrong people. Mirrors weirdly become my enemies, they don't seem to really show who I am. They can only show this body that I don't think belongs to me. Only at some few unexplainable moments of my life I feel like I'm where I'm supposed to be. 

Maybe it's all only in my mind.

a little bit of Africa

"Deep in the Forest / The drums play strong / It is sacred / The whiteness of the moon / Has been tied to the darkness / The mystery of the night / Is found on her body / And in her eyes as well / In her heart a child cries / A cry of loneliness / Bissau is sleeping but doesn't know it / My child, my love, you are sleeping / And not knowing it"

nothing bad will happen

Sometimes I forget where I am. Even worse sometimes I forget where I want to be. I have no excuse for being here and not moving forward. Have no excuse for forgetting about dreams I've made. So I would not forget anymore I have to put reminders and notes all around me. Who knows maybe eventually I'll remember to get where I wanted to be.

when we could stay?

I'm a little butterfly, that takes your heart from the first sight. I seem so wild and free, yet so fragile. Story behind me is a different kind, but when you lay your hands on me, watch out and don't brake my little wings. When you hear the stories of me, remember what my real mission is. It's to bring a little summer in your life, a little smile. I'm the one who for a moment gives you a reason to forget everything else. Don't try to get your heart close to mine, cause soon I'll move on to warm up somebody elses day. Someone like me is not for keep, I'm just a fleeing memory for a day when there's nothing better.

flying too high

For a little moment, a second or a half, a world around me dissapears into nothing. As a person that I am, I change from what you know of me.  If you look deep enough you can notice how world slowly dissolves, it turns into useless pieces. I start feeling that magical rush running through my body, I become lighter than the feather of a bird. If you cannot see, it means you've never been there. For a little moment I sway into music so deep that it feels I'll never get out. I hear every note of the melody,  it becomes a part of me. For a second or a half I for myself become real. I become perfect. My little mind only then can start believing that everything is possible.

standing closer

this happens way too often

I still haven't found a way to get rid of my overwhelming feelings. Desires just consume me, and eventually leave me heart broken. They make me deny the truth. 

Just like some waves in the ocean they torture me. I have no power and no will to resist them. After storm passes I'm left in some lonely, forgotten, bold and unknown place inside my head, with cold look in my eyes searching for another prey.

Amazed by you

You amaze me by the way you do. The way you look my way, and sometimes come too close. The way you make me feel when reach within my soul. The way you talk, the way you dance.  I might forget this all in a week or two, or might not forget at all. I might be a fool, that seems too smart. And I see that only in your eyes I'm someone who I'm really not. 

stop before I fall deeper

Could I stand right next to you, maybe even get a little closer? I'm still scared, but I feel the best right next to you. I've been scared for a while, I've been here once. I'm afraid that what I want might not be the best thing I should have. I had a feeling like this once, and I should learn from mistakes. I shouldn't allow myself to get hurt this way again.

I don't want to start writing letters like I did years ago. What's the point of that, it's not like he's going to read them. I'm just going to keep myself together, better than I did before. I will not go back to looking weak in someones eyes again. I'd rather roam around these days on my own.

today

 Forgive me, about tomorrow, I'm not sure if I could make wrong of it. Sorry about yesterday, I won't try to fix it anymore. After the dark will set down, before midnight, right when you can hear the sound of first owl - it's today. You know who and where I'll be waiting. And if you decide not to come, or you're just too lost to find your way, don't worry. Today even the thought will count. Knowing that we'll meet, for the first time again. Not tommorow but today. In a charming way we just know every day is today. 
Bare it in your mind... Today we'll meet. Today...