I try to hide,but you always find me

You were a part of my soul, maybe you still are. We played in two different teams, we played till the first sunlights. You burned my passions, you pushed me over my limits. I'm not sure if tommorow I'll meet you, or maybe today. But just a simple tought of you makes me smile, and every story of us is full of joy. It makes me happy that you miss me, I miss you too. I miss your gentle touch, your sweet lips, and those eyes.  You gave me one of the best times of my life, you made me feel safe. We left each other halfway, we left wondering. Could it be all?

sometimes it hurts instead

Sometimes we have to make hard choices. But mainly we need to make them because of someone. Usually it is because we love someone so much that we would do everything to make them happy. I came back cause I tried to save myself. Only now I realize that with saving myself, I turned some other lifes around. I’m the mistake in their lifes, now I know I have to leave. I have nowhere to go, no idea of how to get away. I’m doing that so they wouldn’t have to fight and cry, I’m the one who brings these things. I can choose to break my heart, but mostly my heart is breaking when I see their tears. I never lived for myself, but they don’t know that. Their lifes and smiles are more important than I am. I will leave, thats the only way to save them from misery.

Even smile hurts today, My eyes are open. Finally I can see my place in this world. I have no place called home, and the closest place to home is the one I have to leave. I can’t stay here. Cause it hurts too much.

it's just a sound, but it's aloud

The angels cry

Cause they cannot die

The angels cry

Cause they cannot lie

I can hear them cry

I know they struggle to survive

The angels cry

Cause they are shy

The angels cry

Cause they cannot fly

But I know they try

To keep me alive

The angels cry

Cause life is passing by

The angels cry

Cause they didn't say goodbye

I cannot give them a retry

So I sing them a lullaby

should I leave it or should I struggle

I wrap my arms around you

But only in my dream

It hasn't been a day or two

Your hold is what I feel

There are no deadlines

If music could get into my bones

I would dance with you

Till I loose the ground under my feet

Or till the lights are off

Don't tell me I'm too sweet

Just don't want to miss out on you

I wake up from a knock on my door

It's a hard struggle

C'mon I can't wait for a day

When not only in my dreams

I can wrap my arms around you

If that's ok, I don't mind

Sometimes I think I don't think at all.

How come I have made so many mistakes, still I haven't learnt anything from them. How come I don't even know myself, how come I can change my mind million times a day. How come I can make up a thousand lies about me, but I don't know even a single truth about me. Everyone who tried to understand me but failed - they said that I'm going nowhere. So these pointless words repeat themselves in my head over and over again like some broken record. I turn music louder and louder to cover the truth. But if I close my eyes I still can see their faces full of disappointment. Then I go out and run, still I know I can't run away. I'm spining till I'm getting dizzy. How can I find the right answers, how come I don't even have right questions. But now it doesn't matter - cause I know sooner or later my time will come.

How come I am who I am?

silent dreams

Un es zinu, ka mēs atkal klusējam
Patiesību vairs neatklājam

Pagājušajā pilnmēness naktī

Mēs nokritušās zvaigznes meklējām

Šoreiz mēs skatīsimies kā ievas zied

Pat, ja ziemeļu vēji mūs projām dzīs

Gaisā vēl jūtams saspringums

Ko mēs vēl gaidām?

Vārdus, kas mums pastāstīs?

Vai kādu, kas pasakā mūs ievīs?

Mēs gaidām vēlos sapņus

Un klusi ceram kaut tie piepildās

 

it just wouldn't be me anymore

The devil tears

They burned my eyes

I put on another patch

Feel there's something I neeed to catch

The truth that lies behind

Is nowhere to be found

Year after year

On a new years eve

At midnight I burn my idol

While lights of burning soul

With old silly fool

Take my old violin

With tender sound they sing

It's time to join in

way too far to go

If your head stucks in a cloud

Don't shout all around

If you come here and there

Don't tell you don't care

When you're left all alone

Then pick up your phone

You can swallow your pride

And find that your kind

You're not on your own

Don't you dare let me down

Can you tell when it's wrong?

Can you keep it strong?

If only for one more day

You keep it yourself

no use of fighting anymore



waiting seems too long

Someone like you

I shouldn't miss so much

But I do

It doesn't make no sence as such

Once or twice is not enough

It's early in the morning

Every step is too rough

I'm the one who's leaving

Someone like me

You cannot forget

You want me to see

In another set

We cannot play one more game

That's such a shame