Keeping secrets

Talk to me.
What's on your mind, what makes me awake tonight?
Talk to me one more time, about future and lets forget the past of ours that held us back.
Before you roll away to the other side, I want to look deeper in your eyes to see that this is real.
Tell me.
What you want to be, I tell you who I am.
Tell me things only you know, repeat and tell me to forget, but I never will forget.
Before I let you go one more time, may your dreams be full with wonders, and I'll brush your naked skin with my words.
Be with me.
As if of tommorow won't we be anymore.
Be with me so simply, that the world go wild.
Do you?
Only make me feel excited for today, I feel you boiling me up, as the truth I can give you.
Do you feel how I feel for you, darling?

It takes time ro remember who I am

Say what you mean, noone will hear anyway

Fools and beggars
One after million, millions after one
Roaming this forgetfull realm
Gazing out to stars to heal
Easily it is to forget
The ones we let down

Messed up hair on her head
Easily it is to let her go

Even all stars have fallen
At the darkest days
Silently she stays a fool and a beggar
In this realm stuck forever
Lying to herself and others
You just have to forget easily

I never wrote to you before

I don't think I ever actually saw your eyes, to know how good or bad you were. Don't blame me though, I was too young, too naive. Rushing to live my life that I might have just forgotten to stop. Yet when I hear you asking for me, it always crosses my mind. In a world full of people who don't care, why is it that you care? Maybe I even hurt you a bit, maybe I feel sorry for that. Don't blame me though, I was too reckless, too scared. Rushing to live my life, that I might have forgotten that others might be living in it too. Maybe I would like a redo, maybe if times were different I would want to actually know who you really are. Don't blame me though, I've grown and I know, I made mistakes. Thats just a part of the lives that we live.

No escape from yourself

Noone will ever know who we really are. I mean true us. Naked in body and mind. It always just stays with us. For some - won't even know how to be naked for themselves. And if you dont know for yourself who you are, then who are you?

Let me down

I know I'm not easy to be.
Too active, too slow. Too hard, too simple. Too sensitive, too cold. Too smart, too stupid. Too friendly, too forgiving.
I know I've never been too easy.
Maybe been too much, too careless, too carefull, too interesting, too boring, too funny, too sad. Too much of anything.
Too much of myself. So stop saying that it's exactly what you want to see in me. Cause the synonym of easy is me.
I know I'm not easy. Neither are you or anyone else around. At least I admit to being. 

Hole

One on the floor
One under the couch
One thrown into garbage
One lost in the snow
One given to someone, but forgotten who
One taken, but can't be forgotten
One bleeding and aching
One in the next meal will be breaking
One seen on the screen
One hidden in forest
One hanging in closet
One - another piece of me will be falling
And lying here unable to move, and grasp me correctly
Waiting for this whole madness to pass
While life hits me so hard with words
Nobody cares

Courage

I wanna feel the strenghth
Be in control
Pin you down and scream
Be the one to say
STOP
I wanna feel the breath
Make your tears awake
Push you out of your control
Be the one to say
GO
I wanna dress up
Break up
Make sure you can't when I can
Be the one to say
LEAVE

Dance
Dance with me
Dare to face me
To turn around and grab my hand
Spin me in a dance that I lead
Pill here and there
A drink lost somewhere
Through our jibber jabber
Dare to face me
Move back to be a fear
To be a horror
Stay here and there
And become lost somewhere
Through all fucking and breaking
Dare to face me
Spin your pillow to the cold side
Under your blanket or above it
Say something here and there
Keep the last words for one day
Through tomorrow or today
Dare to face me at last